Carpe Diem

As we get older, we are given the responsibility to guide those who are younger. It is expected because we've gone ahead in life and have experienced what's right and wrong. We have learned things from these experiences. Naturally, we try to impart these things to others who have less experiences. It's the joy and pain of adulthood.
I for one am admittedly at an adult's age have been given this responsibility also. Why should I disregard it? After all, it will help shape the future and I can benefit from this - a peaceful future. However, it is of great difficulty when your physical appearance comes in the way of this responsibility. I look ridiculously young for my age. A simple example would be an instance where I get to ride a tricycle. It is common sense and a sign of respect that if you know that your destination is quite far, and you know the probability of you getting off that tricycle first is very low, you move and give the seat near the entrance to people with closer destinations because they get to arrive first. This common sense is not very common anymore. You have to tell the person sitting at the entrance to move away (but in a polite manner of course) because your destination is quite near. This scenario is fine when the one talking is obviously of older age and appearance. Not fine with me though. People stare at me like it hit their pride when I do the same. Sometimes they become rude and lean as close to the entrance as possible and stare away and ignore me. I don't get offended if the one sitting there is older or a senior citizen who doesn't want to bother sitting close to the driver who sometimes smell awful. Talking about manners. Well, it might have been my fault also because I usually wear casual clothes which make me look young (aside from my face and my height and I really cannot understand why other people with same height as mine, look mature enough to be respected). I should wear semi-formal as often as I can. It's quite funny because I want to look mature but I don't want to look old. It's ironic. Tension of the opposites. Well, I'm used to that.

I just wanted to test their reactions... a reply to my email implies something and my reply is uncorrelated lolz. I wonder how stupidity (or somewhat like that) affects that community.

I was on my way home from work. I went to the workstation at the guardhouse to log myself out when this lady looked at me with serious eyes. I'm really stupid at things like that. I tried to think of every possibility of knowing this lady. I really can't remember. I thought of looking at both my sides but didn't do it. I can't afford to embarrass someone who might knew me by looking uncertain in front of her. Well, what I did was to also stare at her with a little smile as if I knew her also. After a few seconds, she finally spoke. She said: "Are you a student?". Wow she's fluent and pretty by the way. Although her words took me by surprise, I just smiled and shook my head. I was relieved that I didn't actually know her and didn't have to embarrass her like I did to someone before. She went on and told me: "You look like a student." I really didn't know what to say so I just smiled. She smiled back. Well, that shouldn't flatter me as it meant that I look ridiculously young for my age (but it did flatter me lolz). I'm a college instructor handling 3rd year and 4th year students.

I've had a few NBA cards from high school and I'm wondering if there's anyone out there who would want to buy it. Here are a few:

2009 was a year where predictions for people born on the year of the pig are not quite lucky. I'm one of them. I however haven't experienced this "bad luck". At least not yet. 2009 came like the usual year for me, well not really usual. I've been lucky hehehe. I got a new task for blogging, a paid blogging site paid me, and my google adsense had been earning (not big but I'm glad it's moving). I was able to give gifts to most under my list (I can't give everyone though, there are too many of them). I am almost done with my pending jobs. Lastly, I bought quite a few presents for myself. I hope these predictions don't get in my way. We all know how thoughts created by these predictions affect our environment and eventually give a feeling of fulfillment. Optimism! That's my new year's resolution!

Funny how I can't seem to decide on what to do about misidentifying people. I have people in my YM contacts which I have no idea where I've come into contact with. I don't know who they are really. Though their names are familiar, I really can't recall any instance of encounter with them. I'm really poor with people. The thought just bothers me. Should I ask them promptly? Wouldn't it be rude? What if they really know me? I hate this. I'm an idiot.