Carpe Diem

I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
 I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love1
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

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Why are you so weak? Why do you put yourselves in the hands of fate rather than faith? Don't forget that you are human and therefore are given great power over many things. Remember that you are not only governed by your emotions. Do not control your thoughts by what you feel. Rather, regulate your feelings with reason. In this manner, you will not easily give up. Thoughts form words and words become your reality. Get yourselves back together and become human once again. 

I have almost forgotten how annoying it is to iron my clothes. Some clothes can be so stubborn and it pisses me off. Well, at least I get a little exercise doing it. The chore only comes ones in a while.

der ws a turtle
hu fel nluv wd a pig.
1day, d trtle
vsted d pig
& sed
"luv njd kau tka"
d pig rpLied:
"kmi n ni rabit, dugay mN gd ka!
nghulat bya ko nMu"
=( OUCH!


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d turtle
had 2 w8,
2 prove
8 was true.
1st tym 8 went
out of 8s shell,
2 make sure
8 was real.
so as not 2
hurt d pig,
n not to
do a trick.
bt nw 8s
too l8.
it could
only w8.

How I hate that twisted behavior. People say what they say without even listening to themselves. People give advices to others without even experiencing those advices or even understanding the same in a mature perspective. Even the most conservative individual commit big mistakes on the very same thing he/she is known to be good at. How I hate that twisted behavior.

As we get older, we are given the responsibility to guide those who are younger. It is expected because we've gone ahead in life and have experienced what's right and wrong. We have learned things from these experiences. Naturally, we try to impart these things to others who have less experiences. It's the joy and pain of adulthood.
I for one am admittedly at an adult's age have been given this responsibility also. Why should I disregard it? After all, it will help shape the future and I can benefit from this - a peaceful future. However, it is of great difficulty when your physical appearance comes in the way of this responsibility. I look ridiculously young for my age. A simple example would be an instance where I get to ride a tricycle. It is common sense and a sign of respect that if you know that your destination is quite far, and you know the probability of you getting off that tricycle first is very low, you move and give the seat near the entrance to people with closer destinations because they get to arrive first. This common sense is not very common anymore. You have to tell the person sitting at the entrance to move away (but in a polite manner of course) because your destination is quite near. This scenario is fine when the one talking is obviously of older age and appearance. Not fine with me though. People stare at me like it hit their pride when I do the same. Sometimes they become rude and lean as close to the entrance as possible and stare away and ignore me. I don't get offended if the one sitting there is older or a senior citizen who doesn't want to bother sitting close to the driver who sometimes smell awful. Talking about manners. Well, it might have been my fault also because I usually wear casual clothes which make me look young (aside from my face and my height and I really cannot understand why other people with same height as mine, look mature enough to be respected). I should wear semi-formal as often as I can. It's quite funny because I want to look mature but I don't want to look old. It's ironic. Tension of the opposites. Well, I'm used to that.